Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Monday, February 05, 2007
CYRUS
I'm not really a basketball fan. I remember when i was in grade school, the popular team was San Miguel and i believe they are 'till now. My father have pictures of the senior players of San Miguel when they had a game in BSP. I do watch PBA when I have time. During my high school days, i cheered for Alaska. Also, during those four years in HS, UST was the UAAP Champ.
When it was finally my turn to cheer for the Tigers as a Thomasian, it seems that everything went wrong, no more championships for them, except for the Salinggawi dancers for the cheering competition.
One player i love is CYRUS BAGUIO who is now playing for Red Bull. I watched the semis last night and remembered the feeling of excitement in every shot he gave. They won and hopefully they will beat San Miguel for them to enter the championship. I never got a chance to ask for his autograph when i was still in college. Now, i don't think i'll be able to have it. The only player i asked for an autograph, not for my self but for my good friend CA - emerson oreta! Hopefully CA still have that notebook where oreta signed - happy birthday CA, Emerson Oreta #18 - even if it was not her birthday.
When it was finally my turn to cheer for the Tigers as a Thomasian, it seems that everything went wrong, no more championships for them, except for the Salinggawi dancers for the cheering competition.
One player i love is CYRUS BAGUIO who is now playing for Red Bull. I watched the semis last night and remembered the feeling of excitement in every shot he gave. They won and hopefully they will beat San Miguel for them to enter the championship. I never got a chance to ask for his autograph when i was still in college. Now, i don't think i'll be able to have it. The only player i asked for an autograph, not for my self but for my good friend CA - emerson oreta! Hopefully CA still have that notebook where oreta signed - happy birthday CA, Emerson Oreta #18 - even if it was not her birthday.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
-- For You --
I haven’t got somebody like him,
I haven’t felt so happy within.
Still I’m afraid because it may last,
Like what had happened in my past.
I don’t know what extent to give,
For I might be the one to bleed.
I want things to be in a perfect way,
And make those worries to go away.
I’m not yet sure of what I feel,
If this feeling I have is for real.
I hope he’ll wait ‘til I’m not sure when,
‘cause I don’t want the same mistakes again.
I truly feel I found the one,
The one I wouldn’t want to be gone.
The one to spend the rest of my life with,
The best gift life may possibly give.
I haven’t felt so happy within.
Still I’m afraid because it may last,
Like what had happened in my past.
I don’t know what extent to give,
For I might be the one to bleed.
I want things to be in a perfect way,
And make those worries to go away.
I’m not yet sure of what I feel,
If this feeling I have is for real.
I hope he’ll wait ‘til I’m not sure when,
‘cause I don’t want the same mistakes again.
I truly feel I found the one,
The one I wouldn’t want to be gone.
The one to spend the rest of my life with,
The best gift life may possibly give.
I'm sorry i love you
I'm sorry if you don't like what I will say
I'm sorry if I’ve hurt you in anyway
I'm sorry if I miss you everyday
I'm sorry if I still love you day after day
I’m sorry I have learned to live my life with you,
that I always wanted to be with you,
That I never felt so happy within
That I wouldn’t want any other things.
I have loved you and I still do,
I will care for you ‘cause I wanted to,
I still wait for you, even if I don’t have to
I’ll never leave you even if you ask me to.
I'm sorry if I’ve hurt you in anyway
I'm sorry if I miss you everyday
I'm sorry if I still love you day after day
I’m sorry I have learned to live my life with you,
that I always wanted to be with you,
That I never felt so happy within
That I wouldn’t want any other things.
I have loved you and I still do,
I will care for you ‘cause I wanted to,
I still wait for you, even if I don’t have to
I’ll never leave you even if you ask me to.
A Mistake
I was once in love with a wrong person,
My dreams and aspirations made me realize it.
He wouldn’t bother to call me anyway,
So I decided why should I stay.
I easily went on with my life,
With lots of friends by my side.
It was very easy for me to love him,
Then it was easy forgetting him.
Suddenly a friend came in my life,
He seemed naturally sweet and kind.
We got along very well,
And there’s nothing I could not tell.
He had my trust ever since,
I even tell him my hopes and dreams.
He always does communicate,
By any means I appreciate.
No doubts came into my mind,
He is in deed one of a kind.
We grew together closer than ever,
We will be friends now and forever.
The relationship doesn’t end with it,
He began to act differently sweet.
I did not make a big deal with it,
I made myself get used to it.
As for me, nothing has changed,
On how to deal with a friend so dear.
He started saying ‘I love you’,
I didn’t answer ‘I love you too’.
I wanted him to explain to me,
That he really, really do love me.
He said he will court me someday,
Back then I don’t know what to say.
Now I’m starting to be confused,
If I was just being used.
He seldom call, he seldom write,
I don’t think this is right.
So many questions on my mind,
But the answers I can’t find.
Just recently I found out,
Answers I should have figured out.
We’ve been friends for four years,
Now I’m bursting with lots of tears.
He has a girlfriend; she’s younger than me,
They are now on their ‘eight monthsary’.
She tried to reach me thru her friend,
For some concerns she wants to end.
She’s really bothered of who am I,
Why I seem special to her guy.
I don’t want to hurt her in any way,
Therefore I decided to talk and play.
I told her I’m his friend,
And that’s where it ends.
I’m no special person for his guy,
Just a friend with no good byes.
I even told her that I knew her,
That his guy told me about her.
I hope what I did will work,
For I don’t want this girl to be hurt.
I can feel she is sincere,
To this guy who for me is dear.
Still today I am confused,
‘Till the next poem I will produce.
July 27, 2004
Part II
I may be bad as others may say,
I had my faults in some other way.
This is my fight and I must decide,
And be responsible for my own life.
We still are friends as we would like,
I know for others this is not right.
I don’t want him out of my life,
‘Cause I know I’ll be hurting inside.
Whatever the consequence, whatever the hurt,
As long as I’m fighting for all that it’s worth.
I don’t want to be forever wondering,
Of what the whole story might have been.
I don’t know how to fight for him,
‘Cause I don’t know who I am to him.
I feel like I can’t pretend no more,
For I know I have to move on.
One day I’ll tell him how I feel,
What I feel inside for him.
I hope he’ll respond positively,
If not then I should still be happy.
Whatever the effect it could create,
I will accept, it’s my mistake.
Better to do something than none,
To settle these things and then be gone.
Things will not be easy as I would like,
There may be more pain day and night.
Only if I could teach my heart,
Of what to feel and what should not.
Still I will try to be satisfied,
Of what I already have in my life.
I know the future will be good to me,
As I go along positively.
10/20/04
He wouldn’t bother to call me anyway,
So I decided why should I stay.
I easily went on with my life,
With lots of friends by my side.
It was very easy for me to love him,
Then it was easy forgetting him.
Suddenly a friend came in my life,
He seemed naturally sweet and kind.
We got along very well,
And there’s nothing I could not tell.
He had my trust ever since,
I even tell him my hopes and dreams.
He always does communicate,
By any means I appreciate.
No doubts came into my mind,
He is in deed one of a kind.
We grew together closer than ever,
We will be friends now and forever.
The relationship doesn’t end with it,
He began to act differently sweet.
I did not make a big deal with it,
I made myself get used to it.
As for me, nothing has changed,
On how to deal with a friend so dear.
He started saying ‘I love you’,
I didn’t answer ‘I love you too’.
I wanted him to explain to me,
That he really, really do love me.
He said he will court me someday,
Back then I don’t know what to say.
Now I’m starting to be confused,
If I was just being used.
He seldom call, he seldom write,
I don’t think this is right.
So many questions on my mind,
But the answers I can’t find.
Just recently I found out,
Answers I should have figured out.
We’ve been friends for four years,
Now I’m bursting with lots of tears.
He has a girlfriend; she’s younger than me,
They are now on their ‘eight monthsary’.
She tried to reach me thru her friend,
For some concerns she wants to end.
She’s really bothered of who am I,
Why I seem special to her guy.
I don’t want to hurt her in any way,
Therefore I decided to talk and play.
I told her I’m his friend,
And that’s where it ends.
I’m no special person for his guy,
Just a friend with no good byes.
I even told her that I knew her,
That his guy told me about her.
I hope what I did will work,
For I don’t want this girl to be hurt.
I can feel she is sincere,
To this guy who for me is dear.
Still today I am confused,
‘Till the next poem I will produce.
July 27, 2004
Part II
I may be bad as others may say,
I had my faults in some other way.
This is my fight and I must decide,
And be responsible for my own life.
We still are friends as we would like,
I know for others this is not right.
I don’t want him out of my life,
‘Cause I know I’ll be hurting inside.
Whatever the consequence, whatever the hurt,
As long as I’m fighting for all that it’s worth.
I don’t want to be forever wondering,
Of what the whole story might have been.
I don’t know how to fight for him,
‘Cause I don’t know who I am to him.
I feel like I can’t pretend no more,
For I know I have to move on.
One day I’ll tell him how I feel,
What I feel inside for him.
I hope he’ll respond positively,
If not then I should still be happy.
Whatever the effect it could create,
I will accept, it’s my mistake.
Better to do something than none,
To settle these things and then be gone.
Things will not be easy as I would like,
There may be more pain day and night.
Only if I could teach my heart,
Of what to feel and what should not.
Still I will try to be satisfied,
Of what I already have in my life.
I know the future will be good to me,
As I go along positively.
10/20/04
Thursday, December 07, 2006
What i really want in my life
When I was in fourth year high school, I was decided then to get another degree after I finished college. That is because I believe that I should never stop learning. During those days, I decided to take up BS Accountancy, but I flunk the examination in UST. I was not really disappointed. I found out that I was accepted in BS Math and BSHRM but I am already late for the interview in BS Math course. Got no other choice but to enrol myself in BSHRM. I convinced myself that I made the right decision, that it was a good course, that after the course I will enrol myself in BS Accountancy. I enjoyed it. I learned a lot and I believe that there are lots of opportunities for a BSHRM graduate.
After I got my degree, I decided to pursue my dream of taking BS Accountancy but that will be after I found a job so that i can support myself to school. After graduation, job hunting became very difficult. Either I am under qualified for lack of experience or over qualified for being a graduate of UST. I was not even a "laude"! Then I became so depressed. I know there's a reason for not having the job I want right after graduation. What is the use of being a college graduate from a well established University if I can't have a job?
Two years passed and then I was accepted in a government agency, got a chance to study again, but to take BS Accountancy? No. What I want to achieve now is different from when I was in high school and college.
I learned a lot in my life and still learning. Those lessons made me dream further. Now, I am determined to finish what i have started. I am so blessed having my family to support me, my friends (school and office) who believe in me, and my boyfriend who understands what I want.
After I got my degree, I decided to pursue my dream of taking BS Accountancy but that will be after I found a job so that i can support myself to school. After graduation, job hunting became very difficult. Either I am under qualified for lack of experience or over qualified for being a graduate of UST. I was not even a "laude"! Then I became so depressed. I know there's a reason for not having the job I want right after graduation. What is the use of being a college graduate from a well established University if I can't have a job?
Two years passed and then I was accepted in a government agency, got a chance to study again, but to take BS Accountancy? No. What I want to achieve now is different from when I was in high school and college.
I learned a lot in my life and still learning. Those lessons made me dream further. Now, I am determined to finish what i have started. I am so blessed having my family to support me, my friends (school and office) who believe in me, and my boyfriend who understands what I want.
Monday, June 05, 2006
Friday, February 03, 2006
Mula sa isang LRT Passenger
Matagal na akong sumasakay ng LRT, yung Monumento-Baclaran. Naabutan ko pa yung token. Pero kapag rush hour, medyo hindi ka matutuwa dahil siksikan. Ngayon, naisip ko, naranasan mo na bang....
itutuloy...
- Pumila ng mahaba at matagal dahil isa lang ang ticket booth o yung mismong entrance kung saan pinapasok ang tiket.? (Nagtataka lang ako, ang dami dami nito pero hindi lahat gumagana? sana inaayos nila o di kaya tanggalin na lang, pampasikip eh!)
- Maipit sa pinto ng tren?
- Maitulak kapag papalapit na ang tren at kapag bumukas na ang pinto?
- Maitulak kahit palabas na ng tren at nasa last station na!?
- Maitulak (pa rin!) ng nakikipagunahang lumabas ng station!?
- Maitulak (syempre!) ng nakikipagunahan sa upuan?
- Ma-stranded sa loob ng 15-40 minuto?
- Matapakan ng isang may matulis na takong habang ikaw naman ay naka open na sandals!? (Trauma 'to!)
- Halos mapunta na sa unahan ng tren kapag biglaang huminto ito?
- Sumabit ang damit sa ibang gamit o damit din ng ibang pasahero?
- Halos maligo sa pawis dahil sira ang aircon?
- Huminto ang pag-hinga dahil sa katabi mong may hindi magandang amoy?! (Hindi ko sinasabing mabaho ha!)
- Makipagaway sa ibang pasahero dahil sa unahan sa upuan o tulakan.
- Madukutan.
itutuloy...
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Separated
Uuwi na lang kami ay naisipan pa naming kumain muna. Gutom na rin kasi talaga ako, masakit na ulo ko at mahigit 1 hour ang byahe ko. So sige, kumain muna kami ni Van. Di namin nakasama si Madel kasi may meeting ito sa Diliman.
Sa Burger King naisip ni Van (Pinaka hate kong fast food resto), pumayag na rin ako. Pagpasok, nice! ganda ng music, Usher. Pagupo namin, kwentuhan lang, napunta sa love life. Sabi ko pa kay Van, 'hay naku! mahirap ng makakita ng lalaking hindi malibog ngayon'. Nagulat sya. Aba eh yun naman talaga tagalog nun eh. Kwentuhan pa rin at napunta pa sa 'ex' ko. Kasi feeling ko, actually si van ang nagpa-realize sa 'kin nito, na pwedeng isa sa reason kung ba't ako iniwan eh yung 'sex'.
Napansin ko, album ni Usher pala pinapatugtog kaya tuloy tuloy. Tuloy tuloy na rin pagka alala ko sa 'ex' ko. Kanta kasi ni Usher naging reason ng unang kulitan namin. Separated, kaya eto, separated na kami. Hahaha! Pareho naming gusto si Usher. Pero ngayon ayoko munang marinig mga songs nya.
Magiisang taon na palang wala kami at nararamdaman ko mas magaang na pakiramdam ko. Sabi nga ni Van, mawawala ng tuluyan ang sakit after one year. Yun ang sabi nila. I'm excited na tuloy! Almost 3 months to go!
Sa Burger King naisip ni Van (Pinaka hate kong fast food resto), pumayag na rin ako. Pagpasok, nice! ganda ng music, Usher. Pagupo namin, kwentuhan lang, napunta sa love life. Sabi ko pa kay Van, 'hay naku! mahirap ng makakita ng lalaking hindi malibog ngayon'. Nagulat sya. Aba eh yun naman talaga tagalog nun eh. Kwentuhan pa rin at napunta pa sa 'ex' ko. Kasi feeling ko, actually si van ang nagpa-realize sa 'kin nito, na pwedeng isa sa reason kung ba't ako iniwan eh yung 'sex'.
Napansin ko, album ni Usher pala pinapatugtog kaya tuloy tuloy. Tuloy tuloy na rin pagka alala ko sa 'ex' ko. Kanta kasi ni Usher naging reason ng unang kulitan namin. Separated, kaya eto, separated na kami. Hahaha! Pareho naming gusto si Usher. Pero ngayon ayoko munang marinig mga songs nya.
Magiisang taon na palang wala kami at nararamdaman ko mas magaang na pakiramdam ko. Sabi nga ni Van, mawawala ng tuluyan ang sakit after one year. Yun ang sabi nila. I'm excited na tuloy! Almost 3 months to go!
Thursday, January 05, 2006
For Somebody Special
A friend I’ve always wanted to have.
A companion I never thought I’ll have.
A chum who gave me nothing but joy.
A buddy who doesn’t make me feel bad.
A pal whose heart, I know is pure.
A link between me and my future.
A mate I don’t want to be gone.
My happiness, my joy, my laugh, my delight, my bliss.
A song I’ll be practicing to sing.
A dance I’ll gracefully groove in.
A book I’ll appreciate to read.
A companion I never thought I’ll have.
A chum who gave me nothing but joy.
A buddy who doesn’t make me feel bad.
A pal whose heart, I know is pure.
A link between me and my future.
A mate I don’t want to be gone.
My happiness, my joy, my laugh, my delight, my bliss.
A song I’ll be practicing to sing.
A dance I’ll gracefully groove in.
A book I’ll appreciate to read.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
I'm Sorry
I'm sorry if you don't like what I will say
I'm sorry if I’ve hurt you in anyway
I'm sorry I miss you everyday
I'm sorry I still love you day after day
I’m sorry I have learned to live my life with you,
that I always wanted to be with you,
That I never felt so happy within
That I wouldn’t want any other things.
I have loved you and I still do,
I will care for you ‘cause I wanted to,
I still wait for you, even if I don’t have to
I’ll never leave even if you ask me to.
I'm sorry if I’ve hurt you in anyway
I'm sorry I miss you everyday
I'm sorry I still love you day after day
I’m sorry I have learned to live my life with you,
that I always wanted to be with you,
That I never felt so happy within
That I wouldn’t want any other things.
I have loved you and I still do,
I will care for you ‘cause I wanted to,
I still wait for you, even if I don’t have to
I’ll never leave even if you ask me to.
40 minutes late
Pangalawang araw ng opisina sa taong 2006. Hindi ko inaasahan na makakarating ako ng LRT ng 7:10am dahil medyo late na akong umalis ng bahay. Sa ‘Special Boarding’ area ako sumakay para sa byaheng Monumento-Baclaran. FYI lang, doon yun kabilang side ng Monumento station kung saan ang byaheng Baclaran-Monumento ay magtatapos. Nagpapasakay sila ng mga kababaihan para makaupo na kaagad ang mga ito bago pa bumalik ang tren para sa byaheng Monumento-Baclaran.
Pagkalipas ng ilang minuto ay nakasakay na ako. Nasa dulong bahagi na ng riles ang tren at handa na para sa byahe pa-south ng sabihin ng guard na maaantala ang pagalis ng tren dahil may technical problem. Makalipas ang halos 15 minutes, mga 7:30 na noon, umandar din ito patungo sa unang station –Monumento. Paghinto nito ay sinabing maaantala ulit dahil nagkaron ng problema ang tren sa Bambang station. Maya maya ay code yellow 1 na daw. Hindi ko alam ang ibig sabihin ng mga code na yon basta ang alam ko malala na ang problema pag code red. Mga ilang minuto pa ay code yellow 2 na daw. Sinasabihan na nila na maaari ng bumaba ang mga gustong magcommute sa baba dahil hindi pa nila alam kung gaano katagal ang ipaghihintay namin. Marami na ngang pasaherong naiinis, kung bakit daw kasi hindi sabihin kung aandar ba o hindi para hindi mahirapang magdecide ang mga pasahero kung bababa o hindi.
Ang mga estudyanteng nasa harap ko ay nagpasyang mag commute na lang sa baba. Ako, nagdesisyon ako na huwag bumaba. Kadalasan kasi ang pinaka matagal ay 30 minutes. Kung bababa ako, madami ring pasahero sa baba kaya siguradong unahan sa FX at ang malala, traffic sigurado lalo na sa Blumentritt, D. Jose, Carriedo atbp. Pero ng umabot na ng 40 minutes, parang nagsisisi na ako at di ako bumaba. Bago mag isang oras ay umandar din ito. Ang mga pasaherong nagsibaba ay dali daling bumalik para makasakay ulit ng LRT.
Mas nakakatipid kasi talaga ng oras at pamasahe, lalo na sa mga malalayo ang byahe, ang pagsakay sa LRT. Pero sa mga ganitong pagkakataon, tulad ng nangyari sa akin, male-late ka ng 40 minutes.
Monday, January 02, 2006
Pahabol bago mag New Year
December 30, 2005, palapit ng palapit ang bagong taon, padumi ng padumi na rin dahil sa kalat ng basura mula sa mga paputok at handaan ng mga nakalipas na araw. Ang hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ay ang pahabol na dagdag polusyon ng mahuli ang mga ilegal na paputok (superlolo, mother rocket, five-star, big triangle, og, pla-pla, pillbox atbp.) na ginagawa sa Baliuag, Bulacan. Maganda ang nagawang ito ng Bulacan Provincial Police pero sa halip na matuwa, naasar, nabwisit, nairita, nainis ako sa mga ito. Bakit? simple lang, itinapon ito sa ilog, kaharap ang mga tao ng Bulacan at Media. Sa TV Patrol ko ito napanood. Nakakatawa lang dahil feeling hero ang mga ito habang tinatapon ang mga ilegal na paputok na gawa sa iba't ibang kemikal gaya ng carbon black, potassium chlorates, aluminum, sulfur, heavy metals and dextrin. Hindi ba nila naisip ang pinsalang maidudulot nito dahil sa tubig nila ito tinapon? Isa pang nakakainis ay wala man lamang nag react sa mga nakapaligid dito. Sa asar ko ay nag text ako sa DENR, yun nga lang hindi ko alam kung may gagawin sila. Sana maturuan ng leksyon ang mga ito. Napakasimple lang naman nun kung tutuusin at kahit sinong bata na kahit nasa elementarya pa lang ay maiisip na hindi tamang sa ilog itapon ang mga paputok na gawa sa kemikal. Sana lang hindi na ito maulit. Kung sabagay, isa lang ito sa pag pollute na nagagawa ng tao.
A Poem for my Friends
Haven’t really thought of what to say,
Just have one guy in my mind today.
He is a special friend to me,
And I’m sure we will always be.
We talk to each other everyday,
We say whatever we want to say.
I am comfortable chatting with him,
Most of the time it comes with a grin.
I like him even from the start,
It seems he has a very good heart.
We talk of whatever that comes along,
Of how things have been going on.
He is a blessing, I should know,
He gave him to me, for me to grow.
I’m blessed again with this friend I have,
I will treasure him as I already had.
I told myself I’ll stay as good,
I will behave the way I should.
I won’t hurt him in any way,
‘Cause I want him forever to stay.
I know there’s much for me to know,
One day it will come, one day it will show.
I will give him my very best,
For he is truly one of the greatest.
Now I can’t wait for future to come,
Of what our friendship will become.
I hope this really last forever,
Unlike those friends I should known never.
Kdc 10/21/04
Just have one guy in my mind today.
He is a special friend to me,
And I’m sure we will always be.
We talk to each other everyday,
We say whatever we want to say.
I am comfortable chatting with him,
Most of the time it comes with a grin.
I like him even from the start,
It seems he has a very good heart.
We talk of whatever that comes along,
Of how things have been going on.
He is a blessing, I should know,
He gave him to me, for me to grow.
I’m blessed again with this friend I have,
I will treasure him as I already had.
I told myself I’ll stay as good,
I will behave the way I should.
I won’t hurt him in any way,
‘Cause I want him forever to stay.
I know there’s much for me to know,
One day it will come, one day it will show.
I will give him my very best,
For he is truly one of the greatest.
Now I can’t wait for future to come,
Of what our friendship will become.
I hope this really last forever,
Unlike those friends I should known never.
Kdc 10/21/04
Part 2
I may be bad as others may say,
I had my faults in some other way.
This is my fight and I must decide,
And be responsible for my own life.
We still are friends as we would like,
I know for others this is not right.
I don’t want him out of my life,
‘Cause I know I’ll be hurting inside.
Whatever the consequence, whatever the hurt,
As long as I’m fighting for all that it’s worth.
I don’t want to be forever wondering,
Of what the whole story might have been.
I don’t know how to fight for him,
‘Cause I don’t know who I am to him.
I feel like I can’t pretend no more,
For I know I have to move on.
One day I’ll tell him how I feel,
What I feel inside for him.
I hope he’ll respond positively,
If not then I should still be happy.
Whatever the effect it could create,
I will accept, it’s my mistake.
Better to do something than none,
To settle these things and then be gone.
Things will not be easy as I would like,
There may be more pain day and night.
Only if I could teach my heart,
Of what to feel and what should not.
Still I will try to be satisfied,
Of what I already have in my life.
I know the future will be good to me,
As I go along positively.
kdc 10/20/04
I had my faults in some other way.
This is my fight and I must decide,
And be responsible for my own life.
We still are friends as we would like,
I know for others this is not right.
I don’t want him out of my life,
‘Cause I know I’ll be hurting inside.
Whatever the consequence, whatever the hurt,
As long as I’m fighting for all that it’s worth.
I don’t want to be forever wondering,
Of what the whole story might have been.
I don’t know how to fight for him,
‘Cause I don’t know who I am to him.
I feel like I can’t pretend no more,
For I know I have to move on.
One day I’ll tell him how I feel,
What I feel inside for him.
I hope he’ll respond positively,
If not then I should still be happy.
Whatever the effect it could create,
I will accept, it’s my mistake.
Better to do something than none,
To settle these things and then be gone.
Things will not be easy as I would like,
There may be more pain day and night.
Only if I could teach my heart,
Of what to feel and what should not.
Still I will try to be satisfied,
Of what I already have in my life.
I know the future will be good to me,
As I go along positively.
kdc 10/20/04
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Mistake No. 1 part 1
I was once in love with a wrong person,
My dreams and aspirations made me realize it.
He wouldn’t bother to call me anyway,
So I decided why should I stay.
I easily went on with my life,
With lots of friends by my side.
It was very easy for me to love him,
Then it was easy forgetting him.
Suddenly a friend came in my life,
He seemed naturally sweet and kind.
We got along very well,
And there’s nothing I could not tell.
He had my trust ever since,
I even tell him my hopes and dreams.
He always does communicate,
By any means I appreciate.
No doubts came into my mind,
He is in deed one of a kind.
We grew together closer than ever,
We will be friends now and forever.
The relationship doesn’t end with it,
He began to act differently sweet.
I did not make a big deal with it,
I made myself get used to it.
As for me, nothing has changed,
On how to deal with a friend so dear.
He started saying ‘I love you’,
I didn’t answer ‘I love you too’.
I wanted him to explain to me,
That he really, really do love me.
He said he will court me someday,
Back then I don’t know what to say.
Now I’m starting to be confused,
If I was just being used.
He seldom call, he seldom write,
I don’t think this is right.
So many questions on my mind,
But the answers I can’t find.
Just recently I found out,
Answers I should have figured out.
We’ve been friends for four years,
Now I’m bursting with lots of tears.
He has a girlfriend; she’s younger than me,
They are now on their ‘eight monthsary’.
She tried to reach me thru her friend,
For some concerns she wants to end.
She’s really bothered of who am I,
Why I seem special to her guy.
I don’t want to hurt her in any way,
Therefore I decided to talk and play.
I told her I’m his friend,
And that’s where it ends.
I’m no special person for his guy,
Just a friend with no good byes.
I even told her that I knew her,
That his guy told me about her.
I hope what I did will work,
For I don’t want this girl to be hurt.
I can feel she is sincere,
To this guy who for me is dear.
Still today I am confused,
‘Till the next poem I will produce.
kdc
July 27, 2004
My dreams and aspirations made me realize it.
He wouldn’t bother to call me anyway,
So I decided why should I stay.
I easily went on with my life,
With lots of friends by my side.
It was very easy for me to love him,
Then it was easy forgetting him.
Suddenly a friend came in my life,
He seemed naturally sweet and kind.
We got along very well,
And there’s nothing I could not tell.
He had my trust ever since,
I even tell him my hopes and dreams.
He always does communicate,
By any means I appreciate.
No doubts came into my mind,
He is in deed one of a kind.
We grew together closer than ever,
We will be friends now and forever.
The relationship doesn’t end with it,
He began to act differently sweet.
I did not make a big deal with it,
I made myself get used to it.
As for me, nothing has changed,
On how to deal with a friend so dear.
He started saying ‘I love you’,
I didn’t answer ‘I love you too’.
I wanted him to explain to me,
That he really, really do love me.
He said he will court me someday,
Back then I don’t know what to say.
Now I’m starting to be confused,
If I was just being used.
He seldom call, he seldom write,
I don’t think this is right.
So many questions on my mind,
But the answers I can’t find.
Just recently I found out,
Answers I should have figured out.
We’ve been friends for four years,
Now I’m bursting with lots of tears.
He has a girlfriend; she’s younger than me,
They are now on their ‘eight monthsary’.
She tried to reach me thru her friend,
For some concerns she wants to end.
She’s really bothered of who am I,
Why I seem special to her guy.
I don’t want to hurt her in any way,
Therefore I decided to talk and play.
I told her I’m his friend,
And that’s where it ends.
I’m no special person for his guy,
Just a friend with no good byes.
I even told her that I knew her,
That his guy told me about her.
I hope what I did will work,
For I don’t want this girl to be hurt.
I can feel she is sincere,
To this guy who for me is dear.
Still today I am confused,
‘Till the next poem I will produce.
kdc
July 27, 2004
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